Dreams: Crazy Dreams, Trains Planes and Snipers

I was in the backyard of my grandparents house in Goodyear Heights in Akron. A large plane, kinda likea cargo plane or something was shot at by some older fighter jets. The cargo plane crashed into the last row of houses in Goodyear Heights, I went to the front of the house cause I heard some sirens. Out front I ran into some people I knew from High School ROTC. They told me the plane was just one stage of it. A train blowup in the station, and there was a sniper on campus. He was going to come back to tell me what my defensive move was. I grabbed my cell to call Joanna, who i was pretty sure was on campus in classes but it wasnt letting me dial out. It was terrible, I was scared. Which is something I didnt expect to be. All I keep thinking was I just want to get my friends and get the hell out of Ohio. Flat Top was safer, I just need to know how I was going to get there since my bet was Akron wasnt the only target. I went into the house turned on the TV, the destruction of everything was just to overwelming and I began to cry. This is when I woke up.... End of Dream

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Fool Enough to not quite see it

There are times when we may meet the right people but in the completely wrong situation. Have you ever wondered if you would meet someone a few months before or a few months after if things would have been different? Maybe some of you know what I'm talking about. Sometime I wonder if my timing is ever going to be set correctly. I've meet some amazing people. Fate, timing, or something mythical seem to make things fall just outside the realm of in place. I wonder sometime. Don't rush; be patient, everything will work out. Is this true? There is a game we play in life. We try to impress, I really just want to be me, I want someone to think I'm the coolest thing, not cause of the house I live in, not cause of the views I have, just cause I'm me. The game of love is a fun one, but can be a very silly game. I just want to tell this girl I like, that I like her, but society has rules. Her eyes, oh her eyes will be in ingrained in my memory forever. I do love her eyes. But I regress. You date, go out; try to learn what you can from a few hours of exploration. Sometime I just wish I could throw caution to the wind, and just do what my heart, soul or whatever it is tells me to do. I crush easy, but that doesn't mean there isn't meaning behind it. Sometimes, yes sometime we meet a person who is just something we can't explain. I meet these people and what happens I get all tongue tied, and start to babble. The game of dating is fun; don't get me wrong it is a lot of fun. Sometime I'm just looking for something more, a connection. I'm fool enough to read deeply into a grand adventure. Something old and historic, something natural and beautiful, something dead and memorable, and something colourful and animated. This is where my life journey took me this week November. Will I say too much, too little or not in the right time, will my distance mock me. Will my ideals of personal self worth be my true undoing? We will have to see. May this book not be finished, may there at least be a few more chapter. I will have to wait and see.

Dreams: Strange City

I had a very strange dream last night here is the cliff notes:

Going through a building going outside to smoke. The building had like 10 stories. Some of the floors had little service rooms that had small decks to the outside. The building was in a city. If you ever been to downtown Ashville, NC kind of looked like that downtown area. I was talking with some girl that was working there. She was taking a smoke break and I joined her for her break on one of the porches. We took the service elevator to wherever the deck was.

In a downtown people walking across power wires to get to a building across the street. It was like a secret party or something and these ppl were trying to sneak in. Most of them look pretty drunk. some guy slips off the wires and falls to the street and died. (that what is sounded like) I walked away to a back alley so I didn't have to see it. In the back alley I was thinking about where to go from there…

A group of friends sitting around on a deck. Drinking, talking making fun of the group of yuppie kids next to us. I think someone from our group threw a beer bottle at them.

Sitting on a picnic table next to a cute blonde girl talking about how the airplanes are pterodactyls and getting into her face with "tawwws" making dinosaur sounds hugging her and laughing. We both were very very drunk. We seemed to know each other well. I don't know if we were dating but seem to be a lot of flirty action going on… ???

That's about all I remember! Maybe more will come tonight!