Satorai - Winter Chill

thoughts

Sometimes you just have to wonder why things can be right as rain, and other times completely out of wack. The holidays seem to be the times when you must ponder this the most!! Today, i'm sad. Sad that my worlds all cant be connected. My worlds are in many broken pieces scattered all along the east coast seashore. It strange to really ponder my life in a whole though... like where i've been where i'm going who comes and go and who stays?

I do love the winter season. Why? it helps me reflect about everything in the world, in my life, and in everyone elses life. I like to just sip coffee, look at the snow falling and feel the peace. Rain is peaceful, but a noice peaceful, There is nothing truly like snow. It dances down from the heavens, and lands gentle on the soil. It will build up and sometime you have to move it around, or even better you can get lost in it. Hiking in the winter time is one of my favorite time, Mid day cloudy, when its bright, but still the snow is making the green tree burst in unusally colour. I do so love that.

If we could know our fate would we? See this is a question i toy with a lot. It would be cool to know, but depressing all at the same time. NO surprises. I do so like to experence the unknown. Not knowing what is going to happen tomorrow... its well so refreshing. Know that tomorrow will always be different. Even if somethings stay the same... I miss people. People I normally have close, and people I havent seem or talk to in years. I miss being young. I also miss the childish thoughts I have from time to time. and if you are reading this. I miss you too.

Sadness, that is what i feel. Sadness, i hurts in my bones, in my dreams in my being. I dont really know why? I guess i should just smile, and be greatful i'm loved for whom im and all that jazz...

Till next time

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Dreams - Remodeling a Building w/ Friends

Weird dream

I was working on some building. Doing the inside remodeling work. A few of my friends were around helping me. Gabi, Julie, Sarah, Shannon, this girl from the zoo I forget her name, and my family. A cousin came by so I had to show him around the place. Which took a little bit, then I was on the phone for with the bank for a little while. My family needed to leave so I saw them off, and finally I was on the computer with Tec support dealing with the business. The Tec support was similar to Second Life and the girl from Tec support walked me through a few steps, we flirted over the computer, and I even invited her to some check out the building sometime. Once, I ended my Tec support I went to find my friends. Julie and Shannon were covered in drywall and plaster because they were moving it around. So I run up to them gave them a hug, and told them sorry I didn't get to spend any of the day with them, but we should go out to dinner tonight. Sarah was on another floor sweeping. I invited her to dinner too. She declined but said she'd come back and help clean some more, she had a blast. I told her I would have more time to help out tomorrow. I should be running around so much. Then I went downstairs to the alley way, and zoo girl was taking out trash. I thanked her very much for her help, and she said no problem, but Gabi left around 1ish got pissed I wasn't around to help out and just left. It was 6ish now. We started working around 11. The four of us went to dinner, and it was great we all had some drinks talked about our day, I told them about Tec support girl, and we laughed and all agreed it was a great day all in all.